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BABY UPDATE IV

16:27 Apr 30 2006
Times Read: 576


So we had another doc's appointment and it seems baby as dropped quite a bit. Sitting very low in the birthing position. The heartbeat has dropped to around 150-160. We have 5 weeks or so to go and everything is good and normal. Can't wait to meet him / her.



Until next time...

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"All Around Me

04:15 Apr 27 2006
Times Read: 578


All Around Me- Flyleaf



My hands are searching for you

My arms are outstretched towards you

I feel you on my fingertips

My tongue dances behind my lips for you



This fire rising through my being

Burning I'm not used to seeing you



I'm alive, I'm alive



I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healing



My hands float up above me

And you whisper you love me

And I begin to fade

Into our secret place



The music makes me sway

The angels singing say we are alone with you

I am alone and they are too with you



I'm alive, I'm alive



I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healing



And so I cry

The light is white

And I see you



I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive



I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healing



Take my hand

I give it to you

Now you owe me

All I am

You said you would never leave me

I believe you

I believe



I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healed


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I'M SO SICK

04:26 Apr 25 2006
Times Read: 591


"I'm So Sick"



I will break into your thoughts

With what's written on my heart

I will break, break



I'm so sick,

Infected with where I live

Let me live without this

Empty bliss,

Selfishness

I'm so sick

I'm so sick



If you want more of this

We can push out, sell out, die out

So you'll shut up

And stay sleeping

With my screaming in your itching ears



I'm so sick,

Infected with where I live

Let me live without this

Empty bliss,

Selfishness

I'm so sick

I'm so sick



Hear it, I'm screaming it

You're heeding to it now



Hear it! I'm screaming it!

You tremble at this sound



You sink into my clothes

And this invasion

Makes me feel

Worthless, hopeless, sick



I'm so sick,

Infected with where I live

Let me live without this

Empty bliss,

Selfishness

I'm so sick

I'm so sick



I'm so sick

Infected with where I live

Let me live without this

Empty bliss, selfishness

I'm so

I'm so sick

I'm so

I'm so sick

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You are - Pearl Jam

23:50 Apr 23 2006
Times Read: 601


"You Are"



This broken wheel is coming undone

And the roads exploding

But you're keeping me strong

Rolling along with you,...



Love is a tower

And you're the key

Leading me higher

When you let me in



Keeping us close,... so close

On down the line



Sometimes I burn like a dot on the sun

With no one knowing

But you're keeping me strong

Rolling along with you



You are a tower of

Strength to me

The darkening hour

Sees light again



Ooh wah, ooh wah, you are...



Love is a tower

Of strength to me

I am the shoreline

But you're the sea



You are.

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"Doesn't Remind Me" - Audioslave



I walk the streets of Japan till I get lost

Cause it doesn't remind me of anything

With a graveyard tan carrying a cross

Cause it doesn't remind me of anything

I like studying faces in a parking lot

Cause it doesn't remind me of anything

I like driving backwards in the fog

Cause it doesn't remind me of anything



[Chorus]

The things that I've loved the things that I've lost

The things I've held sacred that I've dropped

I won't lie no more you can bet

I don't want to learn what I'll need to forget



I like gypsy moths and radio talk

Cause it doesn't remind me of anything

I like gospel music and canned applause

Cause it doesn't remind me of anything

I like colorful clothing in the sun

Cause it doesn't remind me of anything

I ilke hammering nails and speaking in tongues

Cause it doesn't remind me of anything



[Chorus]

The things that I've loved the things that I've lost

The things I've held sacred that I've dropped

I won't lie no more you can bet

I don't want to learn what I'll need



Bend and shape me

I love the way you are

Slow and sweetly

Like never before

Calm and sleeping

We won't stir up the past

So descretely

We won't look back



[Chorus]

The things that I've loved the things that I've lost

The things I've held sacred that I've dropped

I won't lie no more you can bet

I don't want to learn what I'll need



I like throwing my voice and breaking guitars

Cause it doesn't remind me of anything

I like playing in the sand what's mine is ours

If it doesn't remind me of anything

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Skalds & Shadows.

23:47 Apr 23 2006
Times Read: 605


Skalds & Shadows - Blind Guardian



Would you believe in a night like this

A night like this, when visions come true

Would you believe in a tale like this

A lay of bliss, a praise in the old lore

Come to the blazing fire and



See me in the shadows

See me in the shadows

Songs I will sing

Of runes and rings

Just hand me my harp

This night turns into myth

Nothing seems real

But you soon will feel

The world we live in is another skald

Dream in the shadows

Dream in the shadows



Do you believe there is sense in it

Is it true for myth

There one in my ryhmes

Nobody knows the meaning behind

The weaver's line

Well nobody else but the Nords can

See through the blazing fires of time and

All things will procede as the child of the hallowed

We'll speak to you now



See me in the shadows

See me in the shadows

Songs I will sing of tribes and kings

The carrion bird and the hall of the slain

Nothing seems real

You soon will feel

The world we live in is another skalds

Dream in the shadows

Dream in the shadows



Do not fear for my reason

There's nothing to hide

How bitter your treason

How bitter the lie

Remember the runes and remember the light

All I ever want is to be at your side

We'll gladden the raven now I will

Run through the blazing fires

That's my choice

Cause things shall procede as foreseen


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Harvest Of Sorrow

23:41 Apr 23 2006
Times Read: 607


I used to have these lyrics on my profile, I absolutely love this song.



Harvest Of Sorrow - Blind Guardian



She is gone

Leaves are falling down

The tear maiden will not return

The seal of oblivion is broken

And a pure love's been turned into sin

At the dawn of our living time

Hope may cover all cries

Truth lurks hidden in the shadows

Dreams might be filled with lies

Soon there will be light

Pain remains inside

Suddenly it seemed so clear

All the blindness was taken away

She closed her eyes

And she called out my name

She was never ever seen again



[Chorus]

Harvest of Sorrow

Your seed is grown

In a frozen world full of cries

When the ray of life shrinks

Shall cold winter nights begin



She is gone

And I fall from grace

No healing charm covers my wounds

Fooled's the dawn

And so am I

Fooled by life and a bitter doom

To bring you the end of the day

At the dawn of our living time

Hope it soon will pass by

Facing a darkness

I stand alone



[Chorus]

Harvest of Sorrow

Your seed is grown

In a frozen world full of cries

When the ray of life shrinks

Shall cold winter nights begin

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GARDEN by Pearl Jam

23:34 Apr 23 2006
Times Read: 609


"Garden"



the direction of the eye

so misleading

the defection of the soul

nauseously quick



I don't question

our existence

I just question

our modern needs



I will walk...with my hands bound

I will walk...with my face blood

I will walk...with my shadow flag

into your garden

garden of stone



after all is done

we're still alone

I won't be taken

yet I'll go...



I will walk...with my hands bound

I will walk...with my face blood

I will walk...with my shadow flag

into your garden

garden of stone



I don't show...

I don't share...

I don't need

what you have to give...

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BLACK

11:26 Apr 23 2006
Times Read: 616


Black



Hey...oooh...

Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay

Were laid spread out before me as her body once did

All five horizons revolved around her soul

As the earth to the sun

Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn

Ooh, and all I taught her was everything

Ooh, I know she gave me all that she wore

And now my bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds

Of what was everything?

Oh, the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...



I take a walk outside

I’m surrounded by some kids at play

I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear

Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin round my head

I’m spinning, oh, I’m spinning

How quick the sun can, drop away

And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass

Of what was everything (note the lack of question mark)

All the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...

All the love gone bad turned my world to black

Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all I’ll ever be...yeah...



Uh huh...uh huh...ooh...

I know someday you’ll have a beautiful life, I know you’ll be a star

In somebody else’s sky, but why

Why, why can’t it be, why can’t it be mine

We, we belong, we belong together....together...

We, we belong, we belong together..........

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SEX TYPE THING...

11:20 Apr 23 2006
Times Read: 618


SEX TYPE THING...




I am, I am, I am

I said I wanna get next to you

I said I gonna get close to you

You wouldn’t want me have to hurt you too, hurt you too?



I ain’t, I ain’t, I ain’t

A buyin’ into your apathy

I’m gonna learn ya my philosophy

You wanna know about atrocity, atrocity?



I know you want what’s on my mind

I know you like what’s on my mind

I know it eats you up inside

I know, you know, you know, you know



I am a man, a man

I’ll give ya somethin’ that ya won’t forget

I said ya shouldn’t have worn that dress

I said ya shouldn’t have worn that dress



I know you want what’s on my mind

I know you like what’s on my mind

I know it eats you up inside

I know, you know, you know, you know



Here I come, I come, I come



I am, I am, I am

I said I wanna get next to you

I said I gonna get close to you

You wouldn’t want me have to hurt you too, hurt you too?



I know you want what’s on my mind

I know you like what’s on my mind

I know it eats you up inside

I know, you know, you know, you know

I know you want what’s on my mind

I know you like what’s on my mind

I know it eats you up inside

I know, you know, you know, you know



Here I come, I come, I come

Here I come, I come, I come

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A new Addition...a Cat!!!

06:46 Apr 22 2006
Times Read: 627


Not only do I...er we, thats better....Not only do *WE* have a baby coming now I have a cat, not a kitty but a cat. See the thing is, my father HATED this cat so there was a choice, Dad did some Hawaiian ritual thing to it and ate it or we took it. So under extreme pressure I took this furball and now the damn thing won't come out form under the bed. Ya great pet Haley!!! It's name was Freedom, nice name (doornob brother named it) So it has been renamed Nala, the (Lion King) Simba's girlfriend. Ya so anyway I'm done talking about this newly aquired feline.



Until next time.........


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NUTSHELL, By Alice in Chains

00:31 Apr 21 2006
Times Read: 629


We chase misprinted lies

We face the path of time

And yet I fight

And yet I fight

This battle all alone

No one to cry to

No place to call home



Oooh...oooh...

Oooh...oooh...



My gift of self is raped

My privacy is raked

And yet I find

And yet I find

Repeating in my head

If I can’t be my own

I’d feel better dead



Oooh...oooh...

Oooh...oooh...


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Easter....A reflection and a Lesson

20:33 Apr 16 2006
Times Read: 637


The Traditions of Easter



As with almost all "Christian" holidays, Easter has been secularized and commercialized. The dichotomous nature of Easter and its symbols, however, is not necessarily a modern fabrication.



Since its conception as a holy celebration in the second century, Easter has had its non-religious side. In fact, Easter was originally a pagan festival.



The ancient Saxons celebrated the return of spring with an uproarious festival commemorating their goddess of offspring and of springtime, Eastre. When the second-century Christian missionaries encountered the tribes of the north with their pagan celebrations, they attempted to convert them to Christianity. They did so, however, in a clandestine manner.



It would have been suicide for the very early Christian converts to celebrate their holy days with observances that did not coincide with celebrations that already existed. To save lives, the missionaries cleverly decided to spread their religious message slowly throughout the populations by allowing them to continue to celebrate pagan feasts, but to do so in a Christian manner.



As it happened, the pagan festival of Eastre occurred at the same time of year as the Christian observance of the Resurrection of Christ. It made sense, therefore, to alter the festival itself, to make it a Christian celebration as converts were slowly won over. The early name, Eastre, was eventually changed to its modern spelling, Easter.



The Date of Easter



Prior to A.D. 325, Easter was variously celebrated on different days of the week, including Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. In that year, the Council of Nicaea was convened by emperor Constantine. It issued the Easter Rule which states that Easter shall be celebrated on the first Sunday that occurs after the first full moon on or after the vernal equinox. However, a caveat must be introduced here. The "full moon" in the rule is the ecclesiastical full moon, which is defined as the fourteenth day of a tabular lunation, where day 1 corresponds to the ecclesiastical New Moon. It does not always occur on the same date as the astronomical full moon. The ecclesiastical "vernal equinox" is always on March 21. Therefore, Easter must be celebrated on a Sunday between the dates of March 22 and April 25.



The Lenten Season



Lent is the forty-six day period just prior to Easter Sunday. It begins on Ash Wednesday. Mardi Gras (French for "Fat Tuesday") is a celebration, sometimes called "Carnival," practiced around the world, on the Tuesday prior to Ash Wednesday. It was designed as a way to "get it all out" before the sacrifices of Lent began. New Orleans is the focal point of Mardi Gras celebrations in the U.S. Read about the religious meanings of the Lenten Season.



The Cross



The Cross is the symbol of the Crucifixion, as opposed to the Resurrection. However, at the Council of Nicaea, in A.D. 325, Constantine decreed that the Cross was the official symbol of Christianity. The Cross is not only a symbol of Easter, but it is more widely used, especially by the Catholic Church, as a year-round symbol of their faith.



The Easter Bunny



The Easter Bunny is not a modern invention. The symbol originated with the pagan festival of Eastre. The goddess, Eastre, was worshipped by the Anglo-Saxons through her earthly symbol, the rabbit.



The Germans brought the symbol of the Easter rabbit to America. It was widely ignored by other Christians until shortly after the Civil War. In fact, Easter itself was not widely celebrated in America until after that time.



The Easter Egg



As with the Easter Bunny and the holiday itself, the Easter Egg predates the Christian holiday of Easter. The exchange of eggs in the springtime is a custom that was centuries old when Easter was first celebrated by Christians.



From the earliest times, the egg was a symbol of rebirth in most cultures. Eggs were often wrapped in gold leaf or, if you were a peasant, colored brightly by boiling them with the leaves or petals of certain flowers.



Today, children hunt colored eggs and place them in Easter baskets along with the modern version of real Easter eggs -- those made of plastic or chocolate candy.



So there ya have it.


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ANOTHER BABY UPDATE

06:10 Apr 13 2006
Times Read: 676


So today was April 12th my friends Andrews birthday (RIP Andy) And they day after my birthday, I HURT!!!!



The PINK is Haleys idea......



So I was up at 10 am for a doctors appointment to see just how our baby is doing. We waited for about 1/2 hour and then in we went. Haley's tummy was measured at 30 inches from breast bone to the pubic bone. The attending then felt around and told us that the baby has gone from breach to the birthing position, so yay baby!!! The ultrasound thingy to hear the baby was in her hand so, it's heart beat time. The last time it was around the 140 mark which (old wives tale) means i't's going to be a boy. Today it was 175-180, which (old wives tale) means it's a girl. Haley is carrying higher then before, so who knows. If it's a girl lie I've said before will be London, I'm stoked on that, we'll see thou. We have another appointment on the 28th of April. We just over six weeks away, the June 16th due date is measuring up with Haley's tummy size and everything looks good. This child is active, **VERY** active and loves the sound of my voice. So the next update will be the day of the 28th of April. Until then....

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It is your birthday Andrew....You are missed, my friend.

00:58 Apr 13 2006
Times Read: 692


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In Loving Memory of

Andrew J.W. Thow

April 12, 1981 - November 27, 2005






MAN OF THE HOUR

Tidal waves don’t beg forgiveness

Crashed and on their way

Father he enjoyed collisions

Others walked away

A snowflake falls in May

And the doors are open now

As the bells are ringing out

Cause the man of the hour is taking his final bow

Goodbye for now



Nature has its own religion

Gospel from the land

Father ruled by long division

Young men they pretend

Old men comprehend



And the sky breaks at dawn

Shedding light upon this town

They’ll all come 'round

Cause the man of the hour is taking his final bow

G’bye for now



And the road

The old man paved

The broken seams along the way

The rusted signs, left just for me

He was guiding me, love, his own way

Now the man of the hour is taking his final bow

As the curtain comes down

I feel that this is just g’bye for now.



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BABY UPDATE

06:08 Apr 10 2006
Times Read: 696


Just alittle update. We have a doctors appt on Wednesday the 12th....ehem...one day after my birthday....so we will be haveing another ultrasound but we will not be finding out the sex. Earlier posts I said Haley wanted to know and I lost the battle, well seems she has had a change of heart, per say, as she now wants it to be a surprise as well. I'm happy about it cause I truely didn't wanna know. The baby is moving so much and loves the sound of my voice. It moves so much when I get home from work, it makes Haley look at me with evil eyes. LOL So everything is going great, I will update after Wednesday.



Til then...............

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A Song For Haley...

17:45 Apr 02 2006
Times Read: 704


I know that life ain't always good to you.

I've seen exactly what it’s put you through

Thrown you around and turned you upside down and so you

You got to thinking there was no way out

You started sinking and it pulled you down

It may be tough you've to get back up

Because you know that life ain't over yet

I'm here for you so don't forget

You can count on me

Cause’ I will carry you till you

Carry on



Anytime you need someone

Somebody strong to lean on

Well you can count on me

To hold you till the healing is done

And every time you fall apart

Well you can hide here in my arms

And you can count on me

To hold you till that feeling is gone



I wonder why nobody's waiting on you

I'd like to be the one to pull you through your darkest times

I'd love to be the light that finds you

I see a silver lining on your cloud

I'll pick you up whenever you fall down

Just take my hand and I will help you stand



Because you know that life ain't over yet

I'm here for you so don't forget

You can count on me

Cause’ I will carry you till you carry on

Anytime you need someone

Somebody strong to lean on

Well you can count on me to hold you till the healing is done

And every time you fall apart you can hide here in my arms

And you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is

Gone so you can live today

Seems so long to yesterday

Keep on counting on me to carry you till you carry on

Carry on



You know that life ain’t over yet

I’m here for you so don’t forget

You can count on me cause I will carry you till you carry on



Anytime you need someone

Somebody strong to lean on

Well you can count on me to hold you till that healing is done

And every time you fall apart

You can hide here in my arms

And you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is gone

Remember life ain’t over yet

I’m here for you so don’t forget

That you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is gone

Remember life ain’t over yet

I’m here for you so don’t forget

That you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is gone


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